I used to be a social person, now all I want to do is (be on my own). It is now like a remedy that leaves you stress and tension free, I am in this phase where I got fed up with people's BS. Lots of pretense and lying. As if people forgot how to be true to themselves and others. People pretend to be what they are not, no one is real anymore, I began to transform too, this is why I opted to be alone, I do not want to lose who I am really, I already lost a lot of myself, some buttons inside of me feel as if they do not work any more, as if my system is gradually shutting down. Human predators of all kinds pretend to be the opposite, and the prey pretends to be something else to protect itself.  It is indescribable not be yourself, not to trust, to suspect everyone and everything for survival and self protection, it consumes all the goodness and spontaneity in you.  You end up living on pretense,  then you feel suffocated, and finally decide to be on your own, yet no escape because you face another kind of suffocation, and your system starts to shut down by the passing of each day.