I was browsing the net looking for article writer jobs.  Nothing much for me.  Sometime I think I have it in me to be a writer, and other times I think perhaps I want to be a writer, which I am not.

The thing with writing, is that it is a need inside me, to write, to get out what I feel, think, and believe in, because I can not get it right in speaking. My inner dream is to write a novel, but whenever I start to write my novel, I fear that my novel might upset people I know, people who might associate themselves with my novel, though I may borrow from personalities and situations, but I will mix it up, it will never be that person in that exact situation, so I start deviating from what I really want to write about, and then my hole idea faces a dead end, so I give up and stop right there and then. I do not know if I can handle angry people, and open doors of hell. There is a lot of double standard, and double dealing, lies, and make overs in the society, people are either hypnotized or just want to be in, in any way, and it is rare to find someone original, can I write freely about that? I wonder.

Another thing that stops me is the question: Do people read like before? Do they really read your words, reflect on them, or they read rapidly and lash out with reply as I see on the net. 

What do you think? Can you advise me?